The Wall

Day 13: The Wall

So everyone gets to what I'm going to call, "The Wall" at some point or even points in any journey. By "wall" I'm saying that point(s) where you have to make a conscious decision on whether you will just keep running into the wall or whether you have it in you to climb over the wall and continue on your path. 

Today, I came into work like always. Since it's Monday, it's weigh in day...I'm sure you see where this is going. Today is the day before my 2 week milestone in my health journey, but my 4 week milestone since I've started to  make a conscious effort to eat better. So, I was seriously expecting that I would have officially made it to the 10 lb weight loss mark for the month of May. I'm all smiles as I walk into the bathroom, go about my business, cause every ounce counts...step on the scale...and $&%@! I'm UP!!! Not just up like a few ounces...like POUNDS!!! 

How could I possibly be up from the previous week's weight, I've been walking 3-5 miles every day after work, I've been playing spike-ball with my husband and kids, I've just started the Plexus products, sure today is only day 5, but that should have helped right?? 

It is at this point where I've met my first "wall". For most of my journeys, I'd say that this would send me into a tailspin. I've always been an emotional eater, so I would probably have come back to my desk, opened my drawer and found some bit of very unhealthy food for me to "stick it" to the scale. However, this is so destructive, both mentally and physically. Why would I do that to myself? 

Instead, I came back to my office, vented for a minute to my coworker, and them pulled up my bible app and decided I needed some sage advice from someone a whole of a lot smarter than myself. This is what I found first...in John 15:7 

If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done

 Now, I'm not saying that if I get down on my knees right this second, that God is going to take away those added pounds, cause you and I both know that isn't what he's saying at all. For my heart right now, I'm getting on my knees and asking him to give me the patience I always lack. I know we talked about this before, about instant gratification. Well, there is no instant gratification when it comes to your health. There is no magic pill that you take that will make the weight magically melt off, there is no super secret exercise that will make the muscles we have abused to magically be huge bulging muscles. HOWEVER, we can use PRAYER as a way to communicate with God that we are struggling. We need to pour our hearts out to HIM and let his Holy Spirit settle our weary hearts to help us climb over that wall that satan has built in front of our path. HE will give us the strength to stay the path and continue on. Isaiah 40:31 says...

...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,...

 So, I will Pray for the Lord to renew my strength and get me over this "wall" that I have in front of me. I will Pray for HIM to guide me and help me soar on his wings. Just because the scale says I'm still fluffy, doesn't mean I'm not making the positive changes in my life that HE has shown me through prayer and faithful devotion.